For how much longer it takes

To feel the cold burning flames

Underneath this mask of pain

A Lost cause state of mind

How shall I say this

I've been broke down by myself

Left in the cold while I'm crying out for help

But there ain't nobody coming

Cause my life is worth of nothing

I might be up to something

Pick the knife and start the cuttings

Death creepin' in my nightmare it's everywhere

As i go to sleep layin' in bed feeling despaired

Eyes wide awake

Cause my life's now at stake

Drowning from the mental state

So maybe

Maybe it is time for a break in my head

Free from all this fleeting dream

I'm wide awake but i cant escape

Recklessly stucked in my own way

Trapped inside these walls of maze

Asphyxiating labyrinth

The kingdom of card i needlessly built

So who is whispering

I'm losing vision

I couldn't taste all the good of the food I've been eating

Lost my senses

My life's a mess and

Everything is falling on my lap

Scattered in my expenses

I've been praying to God

Knowing that he would be listening

Wont be left here to rot

Even though it's unforgiven

A lost cause state of mind

So i got a grip of myself

And let go of this burden

My inner strength emerging

Time to heal to what's hurting

Replaying the past i try to rewind

The past is the past

With time it will last

Just leave out all the rest and then

Falling onto my knees

Begging someone save me

This eyes bursting tears

Bursting tears

I'm falling

I'm begging

Somebody save my soul

Down from the hell below

Maybe it is time for a break in my head

Free from all this fleeting dream

I'm wide awake but i cant escape

Recklessly stucked in my own way

(In my own way)

Trapped inside these walls of maze

Recklessly stucked in my own way

(Recklessly stucked in my own way)

Trapped inside these walls of maze

(These walls of maze is trapping me inside this labyrinth)

Asphyxiating labyrinth

The kingdom of card i needlessly built

Harum semerbak kasturi indah mewangi

Cantik rupa parasnya Puteri di sinar maya

Cinta bukannya semata, yang kuperlu zahirmu

Hey-yeah-yeah, Puteri, oh-oh

Kini kau tiada lagi, tinggallah aku sendiri

Rindu di hatiku ini tak dapat aku sembunyi

Entah bila kan kembali

Setelah kau pergi, oh-oh

malamku dingin tiada pujuk rayumu

(Kembalilah) ku kehilangan tawa mesramu itu

(Oh, Puteri) malamku dingin, aku kehilanganmu

(Kembalilah) mengertilah, oh, kekasihku

Oh, Puteriku

Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu

Di dalam jaga aku keliru

Oh, mengertilah

Kembalilah (malamku dingin tiada pujuk rayumu) he-ya

Puteriku (ku kehilangan tawa mesramu itu) oh-oh-ya

Kembalilah (malamku dingin, aku kehilanganmu) he-ey

Kekasihku (mengertilah, oh, kekasihku) wo-oh

Kekasihku, kembalilah

sinaran mata cerita segalanya

duka lara terpendam memori semalam

tinggal segala cinta tiada kembalinya

abadi kasih kita kau bawa bersama

mimpi indah mekar saat cinta bersemi

sedetik asmara syurga selamanya

pergilah rinduku hilangkan dirimu

tak sanggup menanggung derita di kalbuku

pergilah sayangku bermula semula

semangat cintaku membara kerana dia

tiada niatku

tersemat jiwa setia bersamanya

cinta murni berdua beribu tahunnya

mimpi indah mekar saat cinta bersemi

sedetik asmarasyurga selamanya

pergilah rinduku hilangkan dirimu

tak sanggup menanggung derita di kalbuku

pergilah sayang bermula semula

semangat cintaku membara kerana dia

tiada niatku

oh..pergilah sayangku bermula semula

semangat cintaku membara kerana dia

tiada niatku

maafkan daku duhai kasih

Izinkan ku pergi

Hailie, I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I’m gone but I’m trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you’re sad, even when you smile even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes deep inside, you wanna cry
Cause you’re scared I ain’t there, Daddy’s with you in your prayers
No more cryin wipe them tears, Daddy’s here no more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it we gonna do it
Lainie, uncle’s crazy ain’t he, yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We’re all we got in this world when it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls, two little beautiful girls
Lookin puzzled, in a daze I know it’s confusing you
Daddy’s always on the move, Mama’s always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that the more it backfires on me
All the things, growin up as daddy that he had to see
Daddy don’t want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us I don’t see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be like when was teenagers but then of course everything always happen for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be but it’s just something we have no control over
And that’s what destiny is, but no more worries rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we’ll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[ Chorus ]

Now hush little baby don’t you cry everythings gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady I told ya
Daddy’s here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy’s not here right now and we don’t know why
We fear how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise Mama’s gon be alright

[ Verse 2 ]

It’s funny, I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christamas presents up and stuck em under the tree
and said some of em were from me cause daddy couldn’t buy em
I’ll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night cryin
Cause daddy felt like a bum, see Daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed or shot up on the block
And your mom, was saving money for you in a jar trying to start a piggy bank for you
So you could go to college, almost had a thousand dollars
Till someone broke in and stole it and I know it hurt so bad it broke your mamma’s heart
And it seemed like everything was just starting to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguing a lot so mama moved back on the chalmers in a flat
One bedroom apartment and dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novara
And that’s when Daddy went to California with his CD
And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and mama had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the TV, and mama didn’t like it
And you and Lainie were too young to understand it
That Papa was a rolling stone, Mama developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I’m just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cause all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I’m sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Looking at your baby pictures it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it’s almost like your sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are and daddy’s still here
Lainie I’m talking to you too, Daddy’s still here
I like the sound of that, yeah it’s got a ring to it, don’t it?
Shhh, mama’s only gone for the moment

[ Chorus ]

[ Outro ]

And if you ask me to, Daddy’s gonna buy you a mocking bird
I’ma give you the world, I’ma buy a diamond ring for you
I’ma sing for you, I’ll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don’t sing and the ring don’t shine
I’ma break that birdies neck
I’ll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every karat, don’t fuck with dad

Vermilion water

Feels like a stream under my skin

Thrombocytes rush out through the hole as it bleeds

Desolation

Beneath the fields of endless pain

Why would I be the chosen one to stay

Paradise

Is all I ever wanted in my dreams

But we're far from grace of God

It's haunting I'm falling

Netherworld

Endless carnage bleak and misery

When all hells are empty

Because the devils are all here

I couldn't stand again with this pain it's making me insane

Walked past the plain fields

Reminds the bloodstain on my heels

From the steps of torture I feel

I had to do against my will

And the rage in me is growing in

As if it's crawling beneath my skin

For a second it got me thinking

Forgive me Lord for I have sinned

Break down these walls before it starts caving in

(Please let me breathe before I drown)

I have given you my all time I destroy it within

Wash the blood off my hands as you mourn for your loss

(Just let me live again)

Till the day of my death I repent all my sins

Paradise

Is all I ever wanted in my dreams

But we're far from grace of God

It's haunting I'm falling

Netherworld

Endless carnage bleak and misery

When all hells are empty

Because the devils are all here

Paradise

Is all I ever wanted in my dreams

But we're far from grace of God

It's haunting I'm falling

Netherworld

When all hells are empty

Because the devils are all here

I'm holding back right now

'Cause I'm numb to what's around

I miss the life I used to have with you right here

Now everything has turned to grey

And I'm blacking out the shades for now

Let me be sad

Even for a little while

Just a chance to catch my breath

Let me be sad

Even for a little while

'Cause it's all that I have left

When all I see are the memories, I don't want to lose a thing

Let me be sad, let me be sad

Can you see it in my eyes I've been distant?

'Cause I can't tell if it's the end or the beginning

I know I haven't been myself, I'll admit it

And I put up walls, so if I burned any bridges just know

I'm doing everything i can to try and fix it

But knowing me I'll probably miss it

These voices get so vicious

Feels like I'm rippin' stitches

I wish some days I could go back

Before life changed, it was so fast

That time is gone and I know that

So please

Let me be sad

Even for a little while

Just a chance to catch my breath

Let me be sad

Even for a little while

'Cause it's all that I have left

When all I see are the memories, I don't want to lose a thing

Let me be sad, let me be sad

I'm doing everything i can to try and fix it

But knowing me I'll probably miss it

These voices get so vicious

Feels like I'm rippin' stitches

I wish some days I could go back

Before life changed, it was so fast

That time is gone and I know that

All that we have is a moment

So please

Let me be sad

Even for a little while

Just a chance to catch my breath

Let me be sad

Even for a little while

'Cause it's all that I have left

When all I see are the memories, I don't want to lose a thing

Let me be sad, let me be sad

I'm holding back right now

(Let me be sad)

'Cause I'm numb to what's around

I miss the life I used to have with you right here

Now everything has turned to grey

And I'm blacking out the shades for now

A hundred days have made me older

Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles that separate

Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you, baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you, baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you, baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, it's only you and me, yeah

The miles just keep rolling

As the people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life is overrated

But I hope that it gets better as we go

Oh yeah, yeah

I'm here without you, baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you, baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you, baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, girl, it's only you and me, yeah

Everything I know, and anywhere I go

It gets hard, but it won't take away my love

And when the last one falls

When it's all said and done

It gets hard, but it won't take away my love

Whoa, oh, oh

I'm here without you, baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you, baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you, baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, girl, it's only you and me

Yeah

Oh, yeah

Ku dikejar bayang-bayang resah

Bila hatimu masih tak berubah

Enggan di punya dan di penjara

Belaian cintaku ini

Aku bukan lelaki yang tewas

Bisa menyambar walau ku di tolak

Biar diuji kanan dan kiri

Kau kan tetap kumiliki

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Biar jasadku yang menanggung

Permainan darimu rela kupujuk

Janganlah kau salahkan aku

Terus memburu menawan cintamu

Aku percaya sedikit masa

Kau kecundang akhirnya

Usahlah kau bersedih, di hadapanmu aku hadir

Memadam resah dan curiga dari hatimu, woo, woo, wow

Apakah kali ini bisa kau tolak dan berlari

Setelah aku menanamkan azimatku?

Tiada lafaz yang lebih agung

Kalimah cintamu yang kutunggu-tunggu

Biar jasadku yang menanggung

Permainan darimu rela kupujuk

Tiada lafaz yang lebih agung

Kalimah cintamu yang kutunggu-tunggu

Biar jasadku yang menanggung

Permainan darimu rela kupujuk

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Permainan darimu rela kupujuk